• “Behold the Lamb of God” by Fanny Crosby

    “Behold the Lamb of God” by Fanny Crosby

    Hymnal Page Scan: The Quartet: Four Complete Works in One Volume (Songs of Redeeming Love, The Ark of Praise, the Quiver of Sacred Song, and the Hymns of the Heart with Solos) page 43 | Hymnary.org

    Piano Recording:

    1 Behold the Lamb of God,
    Who takes our sins away!
    He stands with open arms and pleads
    With dying souls today.

    Refrain:
    Behold the Lamb of God!
    Behold the Lamb of God,
    That taketh away the sins of the world,
    Behold the Lamb of God.

    2 Behold the Lamb of God,
    Whose all-atoning blood
    Will cleanse and make them white as snow
    Who plunge beneath its flood. [Refrain]

    3 Behold the Lamb of God!
    Despised, reproached, betrayed;
    The Father’s well-beloved Son
    On Whom our guilt was laid. [Refrain]

    4 Behold the Lamb of God,
    Who died for you and me!
    Oh, come and at His hand receive
    Salvation full and free. [Refrain]

    5 Behold the Lamb of God!
    From earth’s foundations slain,
    That we, if faithful unto death,
    With Him might live and reign. [Refrain]

    6 Behold the Lamb of God,
    Whom now by faith we see;
    Oh, tell the wonders of His grace.
    And shout salvation free. [Refrain]

  • “Awake, Awake! O Heart of Mine!” by Fanny Crosby

    “Awake, Awake! O Heart of Mine!” by Fanny Crosby

    Hymnal Page Scan: Awake, Awake! O Heart of Mine!

    Piano Recording:

    1 Awake, awake, O heart of mine,
    Sing praise to God above;
    Take up the song of endless years,
    And shout redeeming love;
    Redeemed by him who bore my sins,
    When on the cross he died;
    Redeemed and purchased with his blood,
    Redeemed and sanctified.

    Chorus:
    Awake, awake, O heart of mine,
    Sing praise, sing praise to God above;
    Take up the song of endless years
    And shout redeeming love.

    2 Redeemed by him, my Lord and King,
    Who saves me day by day;
    My life and all its ransomed powers
    Could ne’er His love repay;
    And yet his mercy condescends
    My humble gift to own,
    And thro’ the riches of his grace,
    He brings me near his throne. [Chorus]

    3 O love, unchanging and sublime!
    Not all the hosts above
    Can reach the height or sound the depth
    Of God’s eternal love;
    This wondrous love enfolds the world,
    It fills the realms above;
    ’Tis boundless as eternity,
    ‘Tis God, and God is love. [Chorus]

  • “We Shall Run and Not Be Weary” by Barney Elliott Warren

    “We Shall Run and Not Be Weary” by Barney Elliott Warren

    Hymnal Page Scan: Evening Light Songs page 201 | Hymnary.org

    Piano Recording:

    1 I now am running in the Christian race,
    To gain the promised prize;
    Through Jesus’ matchless, saving, keeping grace,
    We’ll crown Him in the skies.

    Refrain:
    We shall run and not be weary,
    We shall walk and never faint,
    We’re trav’ling to our happy home,
    We’ll walk and never faint.

    2 We’ll run and never falter by the way,
    For Jesus’ word is true;
    He’s promised, if we ever will obey,
    To bring us safely through. [Refrain]

    3 I’ll stand upon His word and prove His pow’r,
    The Rock of Ages past;
    I know He’ll keep me trusting every hour,
    While life on earth shall last. [Refrain]

    4 The heavy weights of sin are laid aside,
    My heart is free and light;
    There’s nothing we may fear which can betide,
    Our hope is clear and bright. [Refrain]

    5 When life is o’er and labor here is done,
    Can we thus say with Paul?—
    “I’ve fought the fight, and there’s a starry crown,
    That’s waiting for us all.” [Refrain]

  • Notes on Sermon by G. Campbell Morgan “Christian Citizenship 1: No Abiding City”

    I read a sermon by G. Campbell Morgan last night called Christian Citizenship 1: No Abiding City | G. Campbell Morgan. There were several quotes from it I wanted to share. Sometimes when I am studying I make an outline of a sermon or I summarize it, and sometimes I just have time to write down quotes from it. I keep them in a notebook and look at them again later. For this sermon, I will share several quotes with you. This is a sermon about Hebrews 13:14, which says, “For we have not here an abiding city.” Here are the quotes:

    “The letter to the Hebrews is a letter written in order to warn men against the specific sin of unbelief. It illuminates for us, therefore, as perhaps no other writing in the Bible does, the true meaning of faith. It reveals the fact that faith is not merely intellectual apprehension and conviction of truth; and shows that faith is the assent (approval, or agreement) of the will, and the yielding of the life, to the claim of the truth of which the mind is convinced. It is the letter, if I may say so, which more than any other writing of the Bible gives Biblical force and warrant to the suggestion of the title of Professor James’s essay, “The Will to Believe”; showing forevermore that belief in its profoundest sense is not conviction merely, but conduct proceeding out of conviction, and harmonizing with the conviction. From beginning to end the writer has but one sin in mind, the sin of unbelief; that is, the sin of refusing to yield obedience to the claim of the truth, when the truth has brought conviction to the mind.”

    Remember that Spurgeon said the 3 elements of faith are knowledge, belief, and trust. So we hear information…we gain knowledge. Then, as Christians, we hear the information and believe it to be true…in other words, we feel convicted of the truth of it. And then we place our trust in it. Morgan is here saying that our belief and trust in God results in an assent (or agreement) of our will…which leads to us yielding our life to God…and righteous conduct flows out from that. So you could think of it like this: conviction –> behaviors that harmonize with our conviction. (that’s supposed to be an arrow after conviction)  He is emphasizing that faith is not only conviction…but a conviction that leads to obedience. That is saving faith…saving belief…recognizing that what God says is true…and then serving Him as your King. Morgan says that sin of unbelief is refusing to yield obedience to the claim of the truth after the mind has been convicted that what God said is true. So again, saving conviction leads to behaviors that harmonize with our conviction. You can spend time working with imagery for that. You could envision your heart being convicted of the truth of God…feel your heart being transformed…and then beginning to follow in Christ’s footsteps on the pathway to heaven.

    Here is the next quote: “The first essential element of the Christian character is the death of self — so easily said, so imperfectly understood, so little realized — the death of self; not the destruction of self, but the death of self, so far as self is a separate personality thinking only of itself and making all outside forces minister to its own well-being and advancement. The Lord Christ begins by saying to men, “If any man will come after Me, let him deny himself… and follow Me.” That is the central fact of Christian experience, denial of self.

          The result in the economy of grace is holiness of character; purity of motive; holiness and righteousness, the two sides of the one great pure Christly character; holiness, rectitude of character; righteousness, rectitude of conduct springing out of rectitude of character. Add to these two things that one inclusive word which has in it the fire of holiness and the passion of self-denial, the great word love. These are the distinctive elements of Christian character.

          What is the result wherever these things are realized? A new refinement; life finding self realization according to the original purpose of God through self denial; life set free from all the vulgarities that spoil, and coming into realization of all the refinement and beauty of character which once had its manifestation in human history in the Person of our Lord Christ, the Man of Nazareth. And not refinement only; but that permanence which defies decay, which realizes that the things of past failure are things of no moment; which enables a man to think of death as transition merely, and to challenge the rider upon the pale horse, ‘O death, where is thy victory? O death, where is thy sting?’”

    So here Morgan says that the first essential element of the Christian character is the death of self. I think it is correct to think of self in terms of that self is anything in us that is opposed to God…because when you deny yourself…or empty yourself of self…it results in holiness. You are made more and more like Christ. You might have heard it said that we are supposed to be emptied of ourselves and filled with Christ. That is imagery you can use in your meditation time…envision that process taking place of being refined by God and conformed to character of Christ. I thought it was interesting when Morgan said that holiness is rectitude of character and that righteousness is rectitude of conduct springing out of rectitude of character. So that would be…holy character –> righteous conduct. (that’s supposed to be an arrow, too). You can take time thinking about that imagery. You could envision a light energy as holy character is being formed in the heart…and then envision righteous actions springing from that character. What Morgan is emphasizing is the importance of a change of heart. Saving faith results in a heart of stone being changed into a heart of flesh…and then righteous actions spring out of that heart.

    Here is the next quote: “Out of our supreme content and rest in God and in His will, arises the restlessness of perpetual protest against everything that is unlike God.”

    I posted a hymn on here recently called “Beside the Still Waters with Jesus” by Fanny Crosby – Learning to Live by Faith. The 3rd verse says, “Beside the still waters with Jesus I walk in the glory of noon; His light is the Daystar of gladness that wakens my heart into tune.” We have been talking about the importance of spending time in God’s presence and how that when you do…you will be transformed by it. God makes you more and more like Him…He brings your heart into tune with His. When that happens…you will find yourself more and more in tune with God…and more and more out of tune with the world around you. That’s what Morgan is talking about when he says that out of our rest in God arises a restlessness towards the world around us. So that would be…rest in God –> restlessness with the world. (that’s supposed to be an arrow).

    So to summarize…righteous actions should spring out of a saving faith. Once you are saved, you begin to go through the sanctification process…through which your life will be cleansed and transformed and you will be made more like Christ. As this takes place, you become more in tune with God and you begin to see the world around you differently. Earlier in the sermon Morgan explains that, “The presence and work of our Lord in the world was for the creation of these characteristics, and of this character. I go further, and say that the presence and work of our Lord in the world has resulted in the creation of these characteristics and of this character. Dealing with individual men, He communicates the dynamic force which produces the change; and those who are so converted, turned back again to the Divine ideal for humanity, born again, find their life centered no longer in self but in God, and are conscious of the passion for holiness without which no man can see the Lord, and feel within them the thrill and throb and driving of this great eternal life. Those who partake of these characteristics become men and women who are constrained to say, ‘We have not here an abiding city.’ The men of faith are homeless in this world, having no place where they can perfectly rest; having no place where the surroundings are in harmony with the mysterious and mighty forces of their own life, as created by their contact with this Lord Christ Himself.” He says that in this sermon, “We are looking at the ultimate desire, the ultimate passion, of the men of faith. It is a passion for the establishment of the Divine order, or in figurative language, for the building of the city of God.” He says, “We are not fighting to build heaven. The living Lord passed out of sight saying in infinite tenderness and pity and love and compassion to His fearful followers, “I go to prepare a place for you”; and that He will assuredly do. What then is this pilgrimage, what is this warfare? What is the consuming passion of the men of faith? I answer that inquiry superlatively, that I may state it briefly. He has gone to prepare a place for us beyond; our business is to prepare this place for Him.” Earlier in the sermon Morgan said, “The supreme passion of faith is not the selfish desire to win heaven, but the self-emptying desire and devotion to win the earth for God.”

    These are the notes I had time to make after reading the sermon last night. I hope it gives you an idea of what the sermon is about. It’s very interesting if you have time to read it.  The hymn “Beyond Our Sight” by D. W. Whittle – Learning to Live by Faith talks about the heavenly city and would be helpful to listen to during your meditation time. We are waiting to go to that heavenly city and we are working to prepare this place, this earth for Jesus.

  • The Polyvagal Theory: Deactivation and Releasing Action Energy

    I have been writing on here about the Polyvagal Theory (fight/flight and freeze) and that I am trying to get out of immobility. I posted a video in this post Voice Note: Talking about collapsed immobility, being able to take in new information, calendar imagery, and anger defined as dissonance – Learning to Live by Faith of an impala getting out of immobility. And in a recent post Chakra Crystals; Imagery of absorbing and processing energy – Learning to Live by Faith, I was writing about compressed, stored energy. It’s like having a balloon full of toxic energy stored inside you. Anything can trigger the energy in that balloon, but you can’t regulate that energy. And that reminded me of a quote by Calvin where he said we carry within ourselves many forms of destruction.

    I think what’s happening is that those balloons are holding the energy of incomplete, or not completed, threat responses. So in the video of the impala…I don’t think it shows it…but before the impala went into immobility like that, it would have been running as fast as it could. Then when it realized it was going to be caught, it went limp…and all of that running energy got compressed and stored away. The energy is stored away for safety…so that it won’t hurt the impala…and then the impala wakes up not too long after going into immobility…and starts shaking. It shakes that compressed energy off, and then starts running again.

    Fight/flight and freeze responses are intended to be used for something like what happened to the impala – another animal was chasing it. But for people, fight/flight and freeze responses can be triggered by emotional threats, not just physical ones…and the energy can be compressed and then never released. So imagine that the impala went into immobility and then stayed immobile for a very long time…you could see how that would be harmful to the impala…and that the longer it stayed in immobility, the harder it would be to recover from it. And for people whose brains process information this way, of going into fight/flight-freeze over and over…even when there might not be a threat…you can see how that action energy (the energy of the uncompleted response) would get stored again and again. So I have been working with titration for the energy in that balloon…working with it a little at a time…trying to let the steam off of it. I am finding that I am experiencing resistance to releasing that action energy. I think it’s that you are used to it being there…so it changes everything…changes the balance of things to release it. Also, because threat response energy (fight/flight-freeze) can be triggered by emotional stressors, energy would get compressed and locked away when I could not process what happened in an event that happened during the day…or couldn’t resolve it. I would just say, “That didn’t happen” and set the energy aside. I had a response to a certain situation that I couldn’t act out, so I just had to pretend it didn’t happen and keep that energy stored away because I couldn’t adjust to what had happened yet…things happened that changed your life in ways you were not ready for is what I’m trying to say. It doesn’t always have to be from a physical threat…it can be from an emotional one, too. So I’m working on learning how to process life exactly how it happened – not amplified or minimized…just exactly how it happened. Can I feel ok once I see that those things did happen? Can I release that energy now and say that I wasn’t able to resolve things the way I had hoped but I will be ok because my life is in God’s hands? That’s what I’m working on.

    So again, action energy is the energy of an uncompleted threat response. That impala had all the energy cued up to keep running, but had to go into a freeze…so that action energy got locked away. When the impala woke up, it had to shake it off. My counselor said that it’s energy that’s all dressed up with no place to go. And you have to release that energy safely. I’m still learning about how to do that…how to go through the deactivation process and will write more about it soon. It helped me process my thoughts to write this out. I hope you found it helpful, too. Basically, I think how it works is that you release the uncompleted action energy…and then live off of life energy…new life energy that flows through you. I might not be saying that right. I have been in a fight-flight-freeze loop for a long time…so I am used to letting the adrenaline of that threat response pull me through the day if that makes sense. But if you can release that stored action energy and learn to live off of regulated life energy…not adrenaline…then you can stay in ventral vagal and be in daily-living mode…which has a healthy, regulated energy that goes with it. I’ll stop here for today and post again sometime soon.

  • “Alone with God” by Johnson Oatman Jr.

    “Alone with God” by Johnson Oatman Jr.

    Hymnal Page Scan: Evening Light Songs page 496 | Hymnary.org

    Piano Recording:

    1. When storms of life are round me beating,
    When rough the path that I have trod,
    Within my closet door retreating,
    I love to be alone with God.

    Refrain
    Alone with God, the world forbidden,
    Alone with God, O blest retreat!
    Alone with God, and in Him hidden,
    To hold with Him communion sweet.

    2. What tho’ the clouds have gathered o’er me?
    What tho’ I’ve passed beneath the rod?
    God’s perfect will there lies before me,
    When I am thus alone with God. [Refrain]

    3. ’Tis there I find new strength for duty,
    As o’er the sands of time I plod;
    I see the King in all His beauty,
    While resting there alone with God. [Refrain]

    4. And when I see the moment nearing
    When I shall sleep beneath the sod,
    When time with me is disappearing,
    I want to be alone with God. [Refrain]

  • “Day by Day In Love and Favor” by Fanny Crosby

    “Day by Day In Love and Favor” by Fanny Crosby

    Hymnal Page Scan: Gloria Deo: a Collection of Hymns and Tunes for Public Worship in all Departments of the Church 238. Day by day in love and favor | Hymnary.org

    Piano Recording:

    1 Day by day in love and favor
    With my Saviour would I grow;
    Day by day of His compassion
    More and more I long to know.

    Refrain:
    Day by day to my deliv’rer,
    Him who died that I might live;
    For His tender, loving kindness
    All the glory would I give.

    2 Day by day to Him who saves me
    I would come by faith and prayer;
    Nearer to His throne approaching,
    I would leave my burden there. [Refrain]

    3 Day by day with Him who leads me
    I would hold communion sweet;
    Then, with all the ransomed army,
    Bow adoring at His feet. [Refrain]

  • “Will You Come to the Cross?” by Fanny Crosby

    “Will You Come to the Cross?” by Fanny Crosby

    Hymnal Page Scan: Will You Come to the Cross?

    Piano Recording:

    1 O burdened soul no longer wait,
    But give your wand’rings o’er;
    Now humbly kneel at Jesus’ feet
    And slight his call no more.

    Refrain:
    Will you come to the cross
    Where happy you may be?
    Will you come to the cross,
    His blood your only plea?
    In the cross, blessed cross,
    Is pardon full and free;
    Will you come, he will save you there?

    2 Behold a fountain filled with blood,
    He opened long ago;
    And there your sins, tho’ crimson red,
    Shall be as white as snow. [Refrain]

    3 Behold a straight and narrow path,
    That leads to endless day;
    O seek it now thro’ Christ the Lord,
    There is no other way. [Refrain]

    4 Then turn to him in simple faith,
    Accept his promise true;
    And O! believe with all your heart
    That Jesus died for you. [Refrain]

  • “Beyond Our Sight” by D. W. Whittle

    “Beyond Our Sight” by D. W. Whittle

    Hymnal Page Scan: Favorite Sacred Songs: containing Solos, Duetts, Quartettes and Choruses for the Church and Home 30. Beyond our sight a city foursquare lieth | Hymnary.org

    Piano Recording:

    1 Beyond our sight a city four-square lieth,
    Above the clouds, the fogs and mists of earth;
    And none but souls that Jesus purifieth
    Can see its walls, or hear its holy mirth.

    Refrain:
    Beyond our sight, beyond our night,
    Beyond this world’s sad story;
    That city bright, it stands in light,
    The home of all the holy.

    2 Secure and strong, this heav’nly city builded
    By Christ the Lamb for all the blood-wash’d throng,
    Gleams fair and bright, with golden glory gilded,
    For ever thrilling with triumphant song. [Refrain]

    3 There, on the throne, the Lamb, once slain is seated,
    The Shepherd’s joy upon His holy face;
    While countless hosts, their warfare all completed,
    In circling bands, lift ceaseless songs of praise. [Refrain]

    4 O sor’wing souls, beneath earth’s burdens bending,
    Lift up your eyes to yonder city fair;
    And thro’ your tears let praise be still ascending
    For rest, and home, and loved ones waiting there. [Refrain]

  • “Beside the Still Waters with Jesus” by Fanny Crosby

    “Beside the Still Waters with Jesus” by Fanny Crosby

    Hymnal Page Scan: Spirit and Life No. 2: a collection of new songs for the Sunday school, young people’s societies, gospel and devotional meetings, etc., etc. 145. Beside the still waters with Jesus | Hymnary.org

    Piano Recording of 2 verses of the hymn:

    1 Beside the still waters with Jesus
    I walk when the morning is new,
    His goodness and mercy sustain me,
    His grace is as fresh as the dew;
    The calm of His presence surrounds me,
    I know I have nothing to fear:
    I’m safe in the midst of temptation
    When Jesus my Savior is near.

    Refrain:
    Beside the still waters He leads me,
    Through pastures of verdure so fair,
    With heavenly manna He feeds me,
    What rapture with mine can compare?

    2 Beside the still waters with Jesus
    I walk in the glory of noon;
    His light is the Daystar of gladness
    That wakens my heart into tune;
    I’m thrilled with His wonderful kindness,
    His tender compassion and love,
    Oh, when I am walking with Jesus,
    I’m nearer the mansions above! [Refrain]

    3 Beside the still waters with Jesus
    I walk at the close of the day,
    ‘Tis sweet to remember at even
    His presence has brightened my way;
    Oh, blessed and holy commission,
    Upheld by His staff and His rod,
    Beside the still waters with Jesus,
    I’m journeying homeward to God. [Refrain]